this felt painfully real. i think the hardest part isn’t wondering if they loved their ex more, it’s realising that their ex once felt just as permanent as you do now. the thought that someone can be so sure about a person, build a life around them, and still eventually call them “the past” is genuinely terrifying. this captured that fear so well.
Exactly, pranshi. That was the fear I was trying to write toward—not that she might have been loved more, but that she had once stood inside his future with the same certainty I wanted to believe was mine.
I think that’s the moment an ex stops feeling like a rival and starts feeling like evidence. Nothing has to have been fake for it to end. The love can have been sincere, the plans real, the certainty honest—and one day all of it can still be spoken about in the past tense.
I’m really glad you caught that so precisely. And thank you for meeting another one of these pieces with so much care. 🤍
This made me realize that sometimes an ex isn't threatening becz we think they were loved more, they're threatening because their existence makes us question whether the love we have now is truly ours or something being repeated....ughhh this did hit me
Thank you, siyaa. You caught the part that hurt me most while writing this. I think the fear changes once you stop asking, “Was she loved more?” and start asking, “Was she loved sincerely too?”
Because if the answer is yes, then the past stops feeling like competition and starts feeling like evidence. Evidence that something can be real, tender, and deeply meant—and still become a memory later.
And I really love the way you put it: wondering whether the love we have now is truly ours, or something being repeated. That question can make even beautiful things feel strangely borrowed. And hearing that this one hit you makes me feel like you were sitting with that question right beside me for a moment. I’m really glad it found you, siyaa. 🫶
this felt painfully real. i think the hardest part isn’t wondering if they loved their ex more, it’s realising that their ex once felt just as permanent as you do now. the thought that someone can be so sure about a person, build a life around them, and still eventually call them “the past” is genuinely terrifying. this captured that fear so well.
Exactly, pranshi. That was the fear I was trying to write toward—not that she might have been loved more, but that she had once stood inside his future with the same certainty I wanted to believe was mine.
I think that’s the moment an ex stops feeling like a rival and starts feeling like evidence. Nothing has to have been fake for it to end. The love can have been sincere, the plans real, the certainty honest—and one day all of it can still be spoken about in the past tense.
I’m really glad you caught that so precisely. And thank you for meeting another one of these pieces with so much care. 🤍
This made me realize that sometimes an ex isn't threatening becz we think they were loved more, they're threatening because their existence makes us question whether the love we have now is truly ours or something being repeated....ughhh this did hit me
Thank you, siyaa. You caught the part that hurt me most while writing this. I think the fear changes once you stop asking, “Was she loved more?” and start asking, “Was she loved sincerely too?”
Because if the answer is yes, then the past stops feeling like competition and starts feeling like evidence. Evidence that something can be real, tender, and deeply meant—and still become a memory later.
And I really love the way you put it: wondering whether the love we have now is truly ours, or something being repeated. That question can make even beautiful things feel strangely borrowed. And hearing that this one hit you makes me feel like you were sitting with that question right beside me for a moment. I’m really glad it found you, siyaa. 🫶